Desire.
What do I want? What am I seeking?
To use the gifts that God has bestowed on me to love others.
To be in a church/community that fuels my yearning for the Lord.
To continue to regard You as the only thing I need and my Love.
I have desired many other things and I am sure that I will have many more, but I never want any other desire to grab hold of my heart like a desire to be with you Lord.
Any desire means nothing if it does not have you entwined in it.
I have really had the provision of God on my heart lately. Lately, I have been in a season of life where all I can do is rely on God’s help. The things I have dealt with aren’t even ones that I thought maybe I could handle on my own. Anyways, I felt led to look up the words provision and providence. Well, I hit gold. Tears stream down my face as I am writing this blog, just because the Scripture that I am going to share speaks directly of how I have seen God provide in my life lately.
First, the definition. Providence = God’s faithful and effective care and guidance of everything which He has made.
Now, the treasure. In Nehemiah 9:9-21.
OK. This next part is what really touched my heart the most. It did so because instead of saying “they”, it could have my name written in and still be truth. Verses 16-21 state the following:
16 “But they, our forefathers, became arrogant and stiff-necked, and did not obey your commands. 17 They refused to listen and failed to remember the miracles you performed among them. They became stiff-necked and in their rebellion appointed a leader in order to return to their slavery. But you are a forgiving God, gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love. Therefore you did not desert them, 18 even when they cast for themselves an image of a calf and said, ‘This is your god, who brought you up out of Egypt,’ or when they committed awful blasphemies.
19 “Because of your great compassion you did not abandon them in the desert. By day the pillar of cloud did not cease to guide them on their path, nor the pillar of fire by night to shine on the way they were to take. 20 You gave your good Spirit to instruct them. You did not withhold your manna from their mouths, and you gave them water for their thirst. 21 For forty years you sustained them in the desert; they lacked nothing, their clothes did not wear out nor did their feet become swollen. “
To me those words are so beautiful. Recently, I have gone through a time of rebellion towards God and yet He still provided for me and guided me until I was back where He wants me. I really like the words, they lacked nothing. God has made me realize that even if they had nothing physically, they still would have had all they needed because the Lord was with them. The same is true for you and I. Even if we have nothing but God, that’s all that we need.
I just want to share some areas of my life that God has shown provision in lately.
I pray that each of us take the time to personally realize all the provision that God has provided in our lives. After doing so let us live out the words of Psalm 150:2. Praise Him for His acts of power and His surpassing greatness.
I really enjoy working at Food Lion. These are some of the reasons:
Although this isn’t what I would truly enjoying spending my time doing each day, it isn’t horrible. It is a pretty decent place to work. Even on the bad days, it isn’t that bad.
I became an official college graduate on May 16, 2008. It doesn’t really seem like it. It doesn’t feel like my years at UNCG should be over yet. Ha…and they won’t. Well, the reason my days at the G aren’t over is because I have decided to go on to grad school. Two more years. I went to the orientation on Monday. I must admit that I am a little scared. I know that this is what God is leading me to and He will help me through it. I just hope I am smart enough. I mean I couldn’t get out of my seat belt in Mike’s car after graduation. Four years of undergraduate studies and I can’t get out of a seat belt. Now you know why I have reason to be scared.
Speaking of Mike (well, really his car…anyways…), I really appreciate all that he, Karen, and others did to really make my time of graduation a memorable one. I will never forget that Karen helped me make my final marks by wearing the yellow balloon on top of my cap. The slide show that was put together of my college years was really touching.
I have enjoyed my time at UNCG, not because of the classes or my internship, although those were fun, it was because of each person that became a part of my life. I love you all.
Last night after Bible Study, I went over to Megan’s to hang out. Man, it was fun and interesting. I enjoy my times with Megan because she is one of the few people that gets to hear me go on for hours about myself. What I mean is that in most conversations I am the listener. I enjoy laying it all out on Megan. I am sure sometimes she wishes that I wouldn’t but she let’s me do it anyways. I laughed last night as I have not laughed in a really long time. We didn’t talk about guy situations (or the lack thereof) although boys were mentioned, or financial problems, or worries about the future. It was so relaxed. I had to have rolled on every spot on Megan’s floor. I felt free. I am trying to embrace freedom in other areas of my life. I think that last night was just a sample of what freedom tastes like. I like it.
