Verse 2 – “He is able to deal gently with those who are ignorant and are going astray, since he himself is subject to weakness.”

This makes me consider how I interact with others. Am I compassionate? Am I understanding? Yes, but am I patient? Not so much. I need to be careful of forgetting where I have come from and my journey. I only have strength through Christ. I need to see myself when dealing with others.

Verse 8 – “Although he was a son, he learned obedience through what he suffered.”

If Christ (God’s Son) learned obedience through suffering, why would the process of learning differ for me? It wouldn’t. I would say that I have had a lot of suffering in my life, but through it I have learned the fear of not obeying God and also the joy of following after Him.

Verse 13-14 : Talks about being an infant versus being mature. Which am I? My answer varies. At times I let go of God’s hand and when I come crawling back to Him and have to impart basic truths into my heart again, I would label myself a babe. Then there have been the times that as verse 14 says, through constant use of God’s word I have discerned between good and evil. What do I do after distinguishing the good from the evil? That again varies. My prayer would be that my use of the Word which now is almost non-existent would become constant.

Prayer: 

Just as Christ offered up His prayers, now I offer up mine. Hear me crying out for an increase in my ability to trust You. Continue to show me that You understand. Thank You for Your patience with me. I am trying. Help me to really contemplate my interactions with others and at all times demonstrate Your love. Amen.

I had overheard my roomie talking about how sporadically she writes blogs and it made me realize that I haven’t blogged in forever. I don’t even know that anyone looks at this but that doesn’t really matter. I started this up so that I could use it as a way to vent and reflect. I allow my life to become so hectic sometimes that I deny myself of the activities which can actually help me.

I am getting settled in at my internship. I had a very rough start. Trying to figure out what are and are not graduate level tasks is hard. I don’t really care what I do as long as it is preparing me for what I will be doing when really working for an agency. I am slowly getting to know my clients, which are teens. I only have one “real” internship but I am a part of two other programs that keep me super busy. Although those programs are yet one more required meeting to be at, they have been a blessing in keeping me grounded in what my work really produces.

I love my church! I am seeing so many ways to serve through ministries of the church. It has me pretty excited!  24-7  is being blessed like crazy by God. I will always be thankful for the opportunity that I had to serve and now the blessing of being fed through it.  Although I am no longer a leader with this ministry, my heart is still tied to it. My prayers go out to all involved and my desire to see its vision come alive is still burning.  

There are other things that I could complain about but I am trying to live by what the pastor said this Sunday: “It’s one thing to know that God can, it’s another to trust that He will do it for you.” I am working hard at claiming that not only can He provide those desires that align with His will, but that He will in His perfect timing.

Hope you all are doing well

Last night after Bible Study, I went over to Megan’s to hang out. Man, it was fun and interesting. I enjoy my times with Megan because she is one of the few people that gets to hear me go on for hours about myself. What I mean is that in most conversations I am the listener. I enjoy laying it all out on Megan. I am sure sometimes she wishes that I wouldn’t but she let’s me do it anyways. I laughed last night as I have not laughed in a really long time. We didn’t talk about guy situations (or the lack thereof) although boys were mentioned, or financial problems, or worries about the future. It was so relaxed. I had to have rolled on every spot on Megan’s floor. I felt free. I am trying to embrace freedom in other areas of my life. I think that last night was just a sample of what freedom tastes like. I like it.

Today is my last day of internship at American Children’s Home:( I am so sad. I am really gonna miss these people. I come here on Thursday for a couple of hours but will leave for a seminar celebration before any of the clients get back from school. At about 3:30 today, the other interns and myself are going to say our farewells to all of the kids here. It’s crazy how I thought that I would hate this place at the beginning of the school year. Although the work may not always be easy and situations are not always fun to deal with each day that I have been here has been a new opportunity to teach, serve, and learn. I have some interesting ties to this place as well. I found out that my great-uncle came here for schooling when it was an orphanage because his dad was one of the founders. I met a fellow Erwin High graduate, who is a social worker here. And she’s black! OK, that might sound bad…but there are two reasons this is surprising. The first is that it is amazing to find a person from Erwin outside of Asheville and actually working. For that individual to be an African American is just astounding because Erwin is way out yonder and ain’t many a black people out there. Anyways, enough with that. I have learned a lot from this experience. Not just necessary skills to be a good social worker. I realized that I had unrecognized beliefs/prejudices, hidden fears, and unknown strengths. The kids have taught me more about how to be an effective social worker far better than any courses I have ever taken. I love and will dearly miss my juvenile delinquents!

My youngest sister is spending the week with me because they have spring break. I am really excited about the time to just hang out and really love on her. I told her that my life is not all that exciting and that she will probably get bored soon. Hopefully, she doesn’t. Either way this week is gonna be crazy fun!