Unfolding the words of the Lord brings light (v. 130). God, help me to continue to search through your Word so that I may always have your sovereign and all-seeing light shed on my situations. Direct my footsteps according to your word; let no sin rule over me (v. 133). As I lay current sins that I am struggling with before you in confession, help my situation to be the same as is stated in Micah 7:8 which states: Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. The Lord’s statutes are forever right and understanding that will help me to live (v. 144). Knowing all of this about my Lord and what my God does for me, may my lips overflow with praise (v. 175).
Feb
09
Verse 2 – “He is able to deal gently with those who are ignorant and are going astray, since he himself is subject to weakness.”
This makes me consider how I interact with others. Am I compassionate? Am I understanding? Yes, but am I patient? Not so much. I need to be careful of forgetting where I have come from and my journey. I only have strength through Christ. I need to see myself when dealing with others.
Verse 8 – “Although he was a son, he learned obedience through what he suffered.”
If Christ (God’s Son) learned obedience through suffering, why would the process of learning differ for me? It wouldn’t. I would say that I have had a lot of suffering in my life, but through it I have learned the fear of not obeying God and also the joy of following after Him.
Verse 13-14 : Talks about being an infant versus being mature. Which am I? My answer varies. At times I let go of God’s hand and when I come crawling back to Him and have to impart basic truths into my heart again, I would label myself a babe. Then there have been the times that as verse 14 says, through constant use of God’s word I have discerned between good and evil. What do I do after distinguishing the good from the evil? That again varies. My prayer would be that my use of the Word which now is almost non-existent would become constant.
Prayer:
Just as Christ offered up His prayers, now I offer up mine. Hear me crying out for an increase in my ability to trust You. Continue to show me that You understand. Thank You for Your patience with me. I am trying. Help me to really contemplate my interactions with others and at all times demonstrate Your love. Amen.
Feb
09
I had overheard my roomie talking about how sporadically she writes blogs and it made me realize that I haven’t blogged in forever. I don’t even know that anyone looks at this but that doesn’t really matter. I started this up so that I could use it as a way to vent and reflect. I allow my life to become so hectic sometimes that I deny myself of the activities which can actually help me.
I am getting settled in at my internship. I had a very rough start. Trying to figure out what are and are not graduate level tasks is hard. I don’t really care what I do as long as it is preparing me for what I will be doing when really working for an agency. I am slowly getting to know my clients, which are teens. I only have one “real” internship but I am a part of two other programs that keep me super busy. Although those programs are yet one more required meeting to be at, they have been a blessing in keeping me grounded in what my work really produces.
I love my church! I am seeing so many ways to serve through ministries of the church. It has me pretty excited! 24-7 is being blessed like crazy by God. I will always be thankful for the opportunity that I had to serve and now the blessing of being fed through it. Although I am no longer a leader with this ministry, my heart is still tied to it. My prayers go out to all involved and my desire to see its vision come alive is still burning.
There are other things that I could complain about but I am trying to live by what the pastor said this Sunday: “It’s one thing to know that God can, it’s another to trust that He will do it for you.” I am working hard at claiming that not only can He provide those desires that align with His will, but that He will in His perfect timing.
Hope you all are doing well 
Oct
25
I haven’t posted anything in a long time which shouldn’t surprise me. I always seem to be on the go or have something (usually school stuff) that needs to be done. Anyways, just thought that I would post what has been going on with me lately for those of you whom I don’t see much.
Graduate school is totally different than undergrad. No laziness allowed. I have a small group of classmates that I see in each class Monday through Thursday. I truly appreciate each of these people and we all have a blast together. The classes are super challenging but I can also tell that I am learning and finally using so many new skills.
I am freakin loving the church that I have been attending for a couple of months. I love that I can go in and listen to the Pastor preach for an hour and a half, and still desire for him to keep going. I haven’t felt that in a very long time. I have been going to the church’s Bible study and I am definitely the youngest person in attendance. Despite the lack of people my age, that time during the middle of my week is a blessing. I am slowly (and I do mean very slowly) getting to know the members of the church. I really want to become as active in the church as possible. It is easy to stay in my comfort zone and do the minimal, but God doesn’t call me to be a minimalist in my participation in His body of believers. So, I ask that concerning me and this church you would pray that: 1) the young adults who come Sunday morning would really desire to meet with God and others more than once a week (this request is somewhat selfish because I want more people there my age but is also out of a desire to see God move among the next generation of this church), and 2) that I will continue to work towards trying to see ways that I can possibly serve.
As I was writing down these two topics, it got my mind whirling on all the other things that I could put down but I realized that they are of little importance. This got me to thinking how prioritizing is something that God is teaching me about right now. In this time of my life where I am having to adapt to changes in friendships, getting involved in a new church, and the chaos and busyness that school presents; God is imprinting into my mind constantly how He comes first. He is patient because I am sometimes a slow learner or forgetful of this.
All in all, life is good. Gooood
Sep
16
I am one of the few people that you will find that enjoys a rainy day. Some people love thunderstorms, but few just enjoy a steady rain. I like to go out and sit on our balcony when it rains and just watch as it falls, sometimes randomly hitting leaves on the way down. This morning as I was watching the rain, the line of “Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me” from the song by Todd Agnew came to mind. Amazing grace. Just think about it.
